im back from campp. damnit. im startin 2 miss camp. im startin 2 miss my top bunk bed. im startin 2 miss kaiping holdin ma hand. im startin 2 miss slpin wid ma slpin bag. n everythng. ok. mayb not all. duhh. dere r bad tyms.
e hugest impact dis camp had on mie was devotion. gods presence was evrywhere. tears dat roll down w/o control. life given up to god n evrything. e msg epastor brought got me thinkin in2 so many things in ma life. if i cant help myself find mie. how can i help others help themselves find god. now dat im gt e oppunity. y am i stil owaes letting go. n livin e life i want 2 live instead of e life god wans me 2 live? i didn tik e least effort to resist temptations. i keep hatreds towards ppl n make dem fell so nt welcomed. n im not slow 2 anger. im angry when i feel lyk it. so many hearts broken bcos of my words. nvr did i realise i had been so self centered. i could devote my tym dreamin bout things dat arnt related in ma life. dat aint gonna happen. instead of things dat could actually bless others. i had been so blessed;. wid ma friends. ma family. had i been tikin in too much blessings? isnt it tym 2 bless others? isnt dat part of e cycle god wants? den y am still livin in others shadow.. n not daring 2 leave my comfort zone 2 do e things i know i should do. y am i still here....... thinkin of things dat doesnt matters at all. lyk him.
went towwn last nite. i guess we actaully make a fool of ourselves at town. hahaz. bud who caresss? duhh. we have funn. goin town 2 sell things. i volunteer 4 all 3 nites. hahaaz! mus go dere support mie. ok.
sembawang park is nice too. though e beach is so polluted. yucks sia. bud we manage 2 build a sand castle. dat looks more lyk a mountain. e gamees r okk. bud not really fun.
love ma dorm. ppl who come in always y our room so cold. den we lied dat deres aircon under e bed. den yl so cutee. she go n really bend down n c under e bed. hahaz.
i am really gettin fat. thks 2 regina n huiqin . regina mus eat moree! ate 4 bananas on sat. hahaz.
love zhengyi n kaiping. hahaz. ma closest group members! n regina too. ((= n clarissa, jessica, jascinta, - dilys. u noe. 1 thing im glad y camp is ova is dat i no longer have 2 c her damn face! walao. u noe. i hate hearin her voice too. esp. when im tryin 2 slp. n she luff at herself 1 lor. no sense of humour at all. shes lameee! dats y i rfuse 2 participate in activities. shes so hopeless! kaoss. she gt no leadership qualities at all. camp will b puuuurrrffeeeccct if not 4 her. now i understan y ppl ask mie 2 'bao zhong' when i told dem im in de same group wid her.
duhhhs. she ruin ma camp sia. is suppose 2 b such a relax camp. bud she make it such a stress one!
sickkk. hahaz. kai ping. ma new boyfriend. ((= hold ma hands walkin round town! lolx. n slpin on da bedd together ((= dere was once when mie zy n kp was on de bed together. zy was huggin kp n kp was huggin mie. i omost fall. cos we were on da top bunkk. hehex. dne bathe wid yy n zy twice. dis is ma 1st tym ok. when dey want 2 bathe finish liao den i jus strip. mus 4give me. (= den i keep screamin. cos i feel lyk it. bud i lyk e xperience! hehex. do it some other tym okk. ((= love u guys.
annual camp 2004 gers brigade 2004.
im gonna bless others lyk others n god had blessed mie.
im gonna b different.
im gonna make a difference.
im wanna let e whold world noe.
dat ur living in me.
i wanna dem 2 noe im a dotter of god.
victorious n freee.
im gonna be a candle wid a flame.
a salt of e earth.
im gonna lay down evrything.
bud all i possess is dis life im living.
n makin use of dis life i noe.
even when i fall.
u will b dere 2 pick mie up.
oyu n no one elsee.
is - you aloneeee.
